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Thursday, September 29, 2005

Ernold Same

Ernold Same awoke from the same dream
In the same bed
At the same time
Looked in the same mirror
Made the same frown
And felt the same way as he did every day
Then Ernold Same caught the same train
At the same station
Sat in the same seat
With the same nasty stain
Next to same old what's-his-name
On his way to the same place
With the same name
To do the same thing
Again and again and again
Poor old Ernold Same
Oh, Ernold Same
His world stays the same
Today will always be tomorrow
Poor old Ernold Same
He's getting that feeling once again
Nothing will change tomorrow

~lyrics by Blur

Rainy Day

Rainy day gloom so surrounding.
The rain should be cleansing everything away.
Doubts, fears, questions and rage.
But it's only pulling me down today.
The chilled beauty is permeating my pores and my soul.
Gloomy rainy day.

Tuesday, September 27, 2005


Monday, September 26, 2005


Whirling thoughts and unfinished tasks are surrounding me.
I'm lying alone, not wanting to sleep but my body tells me different.
Not enough of anything. Too much of it all.
The sounds around me are pulsing in my head, suffocating me.
Focus seems impossible now so I dream of sleep and leaving the day behind.

Thursday, September 22, 2005

Autumnal bliss

This is from last year, but in honor of the first day of Autumn, here it is!

The autumn air silently slips in.
Hidden by the dwindling summer heat and energy.
It enravels the trees, cooling the leaves and dropping them into a new afterlife.
It slices the day into warm sun and cool darkness
and celebrates the transition with a full red moon that lights up the October sky,
bringing comfort, mystery and peaceful power.
The crisp air permeates my lungs as I take in a deep breath.
As the pace of life slows, I embrace the bittersweet celebration of the approaching sublime repose of winter and the departure of the sweet summer.
I take another deep inhale and sigh as I button up my sweater.

Autumn is here. I love the changing of the much perspective and excitement.

Autumn is a second spring when every leaf is a flower.
~ Albert Camus

Autumn wins you best by this its mute appeal to sympathy for its decay.
~Robert Browning

Spring comes with flowers, AUTUMN with the moon, summer with the breeze, winter with snow. When idle concerns don't fill your thoughts, that's your best season.

Delicious autumn! My very soul is wedded to it, and if I were a bird I would fly about the earth seeking the successive autumns.
~George Eliot


Here are some magnets that I've been working on recently... Alot of times while I'm mentoring and A is painting or making something awesome I've been making these. Fun!

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

At the moment...

I am missing vacation and the west and less stress
I don't want to go to work anymore
I am anxious and nervous about "selling" my "art"
I am procrastinating
I am really not digging liars
I feel stressed out now that vacation is over
I am confused and searching
I am questioning my purpose and my place
I am enjoying the last 2 days of summer
I am feeling the cool summer breeze
I am unable to sleep
I feel vulnerable
I am craving a lazy day of affection and reflection and connection
I am post-vacation, end-of-summer sad


Nature's Divinity
in Glacier National Park

Wild Wild West

Just got back Sunday night from our trip out west. We were in Utah, Idaho (so much more beautiful than I expected), Wyoming, and Montana. What a trip. Tons of fun, tons of beauty, tons of powerful nature surrounding us. Yellowstone, Glacier, Grand Tetons, ghost towns, Salt Lake, bunches of other mountains and forests, geysers, hot springs, waterfalls, canyons.... A bit chilly for a summer vacation (it flurried the morning after we arrived and we had a snow covered hike in Glacier). It was great though.... HERE are lots of pictures. It was sad sad sad to be back in New Jersey with all of the speediness and pollution and noise and light... Such is life I suppose....

Some of the wild animals we saw (spotting animals was one of the best parts - especially in Yellowstone!)

Bison (buffalo) - my favorite! So much fun to watch.
Elk - the males are awesome - big horns and crazy sound that they make
Mule Deer
Moose (mom and baby)
Black bear (no grizzlies unfortunately and fortunately)
Birds which I am not good at identifying
Lots of cows
Dogs, squirrels, chipmunks....
Slept with a packrat....yuck...
(Dave, what did I miss?)

And here are just a few pics...

Friday, September 09, 2005

Hurricane Katrina Relief Effort in Montclair

Hey everyone out there in the NJ area,there will be a Hurricane Katrina Relief Effort at Tierney’s Tavern in Montclair on Saturday, Sept. 17th. 100% of $20 suggested contributions will go the the Hurricane Katrina Relief Effort, sponsored by Montclair Responds. Doors will open at 8. Live bands, prizes, cool people, and fun! See the flier below.

Email: for more info!

The line separating good and evil passes not through states, nor between political parties either - but right through every human heart.
- Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn, The Gulag Archipelago

If the enemy within cannot kill us, then the enemy without can do us no harm
-African Proverb

Thursday, September 08, 2005


Sabrina Ward Harrison's new site is finally up!
I just got the e-mail... But I guess so did a bunch of other people because I can't get onto it!!!

Well, regardless, I can't wait to check it out and see all of the fun and beautiful and luscious goodness that is bound to be there!

Whoa! And she has a new book out shortly.. Woo hoo!

Easy to be rich

I saw this here. So fitting for this time... Thanks!

Title Page by Rilke

It's easy for the rich and fortunate to be silent,
nobody wants to know who they are.
That is why the destitute must show themselves,
must say: I am blind,
or: that is what I'm about to become,
or: it's not going very well with me here on Earth,
or: I have a sick child,
or: this is where I'm kind of all stuck together . . .

And perhaps even that is not enough.

Despite everything, as if they were things,
people walk right by, and so they must sing.

And one hears good music there.

Truly, people are strange; They'd
rather hear castrati in boys' choirs.

But God himself comes and remains a long time
when these disfigured ones begin to disturb him.

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Hurricane Relief Effort

Not sure who actually reads my blog, ;) but if anyone who does is in the NJ area,there will be a Hurricane Katrina Relief Effort at Tierney’s Tavern in Montclair on Saturday, Sept. 17th. 100% of $20 suggested contributions will go the the Hurricane Katrina Relief Effort, sponsored by Montclair Responds. Doors will open at 8. 4 bands will be featured - The Mike Callahan Band, Marlowe Grey, and Where’s the Money Lebowski, and one more not yet announced.

More info to follow...

The line separating good and evil passes not through states, nor between political parties either - but right through every human heart.
- Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn, The Gulag Archipelago

If the enemy within cannot kill us, then the enemy without can do us no harm
-African Proverb

Swirling vibes

What a week. Summer is winding down and the air is getting cool. It would have such a calming effect...if there wasn't so much crazy swirling energy all around. Swirling down in the Gulf of Mexico, swirling in Iraq, swirling in all of the forgotten and ignored places around the world, swirling in my mind. Too much to even think straight. I think I should go to sleep.

And on a lucky note, on Saturday at 10:30 am I will arrive in Utah and have a week of mountain enjoyment. There will be a tinge of guilt and sadness with this trip but I am going to try to realize how lucky Dave and I are to have what we have and to be able to explore the mountains and the open sky together.

Friday, September 02, 2005


I don't have the time at the moment or the energy to form my own clear thoughts about the situation in New Orleans and other areas of the south that have been devastated and ripped apart by the hurricane but I do know that the efforts to help from our government have seemed inadequate at best. Just read this on a post on NY Times online - "Give til it hurts". It's so simple and true. Donate your money to help people who have nothing. Give up your morning latte if you have to (I will!) and your new pair of fall shoes... Even if it's only 10 bucks. Give. I know I am!

Here's a letter from Michael Moore. A bit of bitter levity I suppose:

Friday, September 2nd, 2005

Dear Mr. Bush:

Any idea where all our helicopters are? It's Day 5 of Hurricane Katrina and thousands remain stranded in New Orleans and need to be airlifted. Where on earth could you have misplaced all our military choppers? Do you need help finding them? I once lost my car in a Sears parking lot. Man, was that a drag.

Also, any idea where all our national guard soldiers are? We could really use them right now for the type of thing they signed up to do like helping with national disasters. How come they weren't there to begin with?

Last Thursday I was in south Florida and sat outside while the eye of Hurricane Katrina passed over my head. It was only a Category 1 then but it was pretty nasty. Eleven people died and, as of today, there were still homes without power. That night the weatherman said this storm was on its way to New Orleans. That was Thursday! Did anybody tell you? I know you didn't want to interrupt your vacation and I know how you don't like to get bad news. Plus, you had fundraisers to go to and mothers of dead soldiers to ignore and smear. You sure showed her!

I especially like how, the day after the hurricane, instead of flying to Louisiana, you flew to San Diego to party with your business peeps. Don't let people criticize you for this -- after all, the hurricane was over and what the heck could you do, put your finger in the dike?

And don't listen to those who, in the coming days, will reveal how you specifically reduced the Army Corps of Engineers' budget for New Orleans this summer for the third year in a row. You just tell them that even if you hadn't cut the money to fix those levees, there weren't going to be any Army engineers to fix them anyway because you had a much more important construction job for them -- BUILDING DEMOCRACY IN IRAQ!

On Day 3, when you finally left your vacation home, I have to say I was moved by how you had your Air Force One pilot descend from the clouds as you flew over New Orleans so you could catch a quick look of the disaster. Hey, I know you couldn't stop and grab a bullhorn and stand on some rubble and act like a commander in chief. Been there done that.

There will be those who will try to politicize this tragedy and try to use it against you. Just have your people keep pointing that out. Respond to nothing. Even those pesky scientists who predicted this would happen because the water in the Gulf of Mexico is getting hotter and hotter making a storm like this inevitable. Ignore them and all their global warming Chicken Littles. There is nothing unusual about a hurricane that was so wide it would be like having one F-4 tornado that stretched from New York to Cleveland.

No, Mr. Bush, you just stay the course. It's not your fault that 30 percent of New Orleans lives in poverty or that tens of thousands had no transportation to get out of town. C'mon, they're black! I mean, it's not like this happened to Kennebunkport. Can you imagine leaving white people on their roofs for five days? Don't make me laugh! Race has nothing -- NOTHING -- to do with this!

You hang in there, Mr. Bush. Just try to find a few of our Army helicopters and send them there. Pretend the people of New Orleans and the Gulf Coast are near Tikrit.


Michael Moore

P.S. That annoying mother, Cindy Sheehan, is no longer at your ranch. She and dozens of other relatives of the Iraqi War dead are now driving across the country, stopping in many cities along the way. Maybe you can catch up with them before they get to DC on September 21st.

Thursday, September 01, 2005


Another good ol' blog list:

Five Locations I would like to run away to:

  • Tahiti
  • Somewhere in the Mediterranean
  • Space
  • My dreams
  • A house on the ocean

Five Bad Habits I have:

  • I’m always late…for everything
  • Is PMS a habit?
  • Interrupting people when they talk (I annoy myself when I do it)
  • Email obsession
  • Not putting anything away

Five things I like doing:

  • Hanging out on the porch
  • Camping
  • Immersing in creating something
  • Traveling
  • Cozying up with a certain person

Five things I hate:

  • Condescension in its many forms
  • Being misunderstood
  • Uncontrollable emotions
  • Traffic
  • Boring work

Five things I would never wear:

  • Stilettos (I hope I stick to this one)
  • A diamond bra because diamonds are bad
  • A fur coat
  • Bermuda shorts
  • A white pearl necklace

Five TV shows I like:

  • Six Feet Under
  • House
  • Lost
  • Jeopardy
  • ER

Five Favorite books (just first that come to my mind – this is tough):

  • The Stand, by Stephen King
  • Spilling Open, by Sabrina Ward Harrison
  • The Catcher in the Rye, by J.D. Salinger
  • The Little Prince, by Antoine de Saint Exupéry
  • Celestine Prophecy, by James Redfield

Five Favorite movies (another tough one):

  • The Shining
  • Scream
  • Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
  • Dead Poets Society
  • Big Fish

Five Biggest Joys of the Moment:

  • The thought of a 3-day weekend ahead of me and a week-long vacation in 9 days!
  • Love
  • Sunny, end-of-summer day
  • Witnessing people’s generosity
  • (This last one is a secret)