Circadian Creation: Gamma Rays 4.26.06

Gamma Rays

I still have lots of CCs to catch up on....:

• one
• nothing
• jitters
• freedom
• sewer
• ponytail
• beer
• planck length
• ethereal

My sleeping pose is...drumroll please...

Find your own pose!

Circadian Creation: Obsidian 4.20.06

Obsidian seas swallowing them up
As they fell into the nothingness before them.

She still gazed from a distance
And her tears dried as she watched them more closely
Watched the youngest, watched the quietest and the softest.

She sat for hours, weeks, years and lifetimes
In the eclipse of the soulless
Until the day came when her eye glimpsed the light.

A woman rose up from the shadows
With luscious melodies spilling from her lips
And soothing touches waking them up.

She was only one of them
So where did this power arise from?

After generations of darkness how did she exist
Here before the mystic?

She shifted her glance to the azure sea
And watched the sunlight cast reflections
Of the future
And she waited for what awaited them.

...a continuation of mystical and eloquence
Finally a CC on time!

Circadian Creation: Canto 4.18.06

Circadian Creation: Brutal 4.19.06

Circadian Creation: Face 4.5.06 (delayed)

...more catch up...

Today

I am so behind on my Circadian Creations (those creative topics that both Dave and I do each day - well, that I don't do lately). I don't know what my problem is. I'm taking off tomorrow because I have a doctor's appointment right in the middle of the day, so hopefully I'll be feeling inspired to catch up. Maybe I started trying to get the Circadian Creations to be too close to good, instead of just going with the flow and getting them done. I have to get back to that attitude about them and do them!

So, Kerilyn inspired me to do a little high/low today:

High:
It is wonderfully sunny and warm out today and I listened to some good music on the way to work and also a bit of news.

Low:
Plans are not coming to fruition as quickly as I'd like.

And a little 3 things, 2 things for today:

3 things that make you happy:
Sunny, warm weather
Weekend spent relaxing, playing games, having fun, catching up on sleep and converstation. ;)
Anticipation of good stuff (trips and moves and festivals)

2 things you looking forward to today:
Doing something creative
Enjoying the beautiful weather after work

2 long term things you looking forward to:
North Carolina or Albany
Supporting myself with my artwork and web design

1 person you are going to appreciate:
Marly - for cleaning Dave's apartment!!!

Circadian Creation: Corpuscle 4.6.06

Delayed creation....

Bored and bitchy

Ugh. The pit and the pendulum.

I'm so behind on the circadian creations. Hoping to catch up this weekend. I had off yesterday and today as well. Yesterday I had big plans for accomplishing things, but it didn't turn out that way. I did, however, clean out my car which was very much needed. I can't believe how much stuff I fit into that little car. It took me almost two hours just to empty it! There were things in there that I haven't seen since September. Now the goal is always to keep it clutter free but I can never seem to do that. I'll try again though. Enjoyed some margaritas, music, and wine with Marly and Erich and a yummy family dinner. Nice time overall. Went to bed early so I've already been up for a few hours which is nice. Apparently, I fell asleep before the bonfire. I never do this and am a bit bummed that I missed it. Perhaps there will be another one tonight. I'm not sure where I'll be but maybe I'll catch it. Going to see one of my best friends today. I haven't chatted with her in a while, so it will be nice and I get to have some of her mom's habichuela con dulce - yummmm - sweet beans. I love it! I'm glad I made these plans so that I don't just sit around and watch TV and brood and mope.

Things on my mind, so I definitely need to keep busy today. I'm feeling bitchy and insecure and scared and bored and frustrated. Cleaning/organizing/eliminating/hopefully simplifying today. I would also like to make some things but I'll have to see if I find the time today. I have been really bored lately. I haven't been mentoring (long story) lately which sucks. I miss the girl that I mentor and I miss that creative time that we spent together each week. That story is still open but I have no idea what's happening with that situation. I have had so much more time on my hands lately and I have done so much less with it. It's a catch-22 that I always tend to find myself in. When I have no time and am super-busy I get a ton done and make sure that I make time to be creative and make things. Now, that I am plan free I am doing nothing. Watching too much TV, getting plenty of sleep, and doing absolutely nothing. It makes me feel so cranky and bored. Ugh. I don't know. Just a crappy feeling. I don't know if I'm ignoring things or overanalyzing things or what. I can't seem to make sense of anything so I just go through the day-to-day monotony and ignore things. I don't even know if this post makes sense. I've said stupid things lately and been so irritable and quick to react and I hate it. I hate that feeling of lacking control in what I say. And what exactly is it stemming from? Fear I assume, coupled with frustration and that "on the outside" feeling. I just need to shut up, sit back, and draw or write or something along those lines.
I need something more...and quickly. I guess I'll go back to watching the Craft and throwing out clothing (don't worry - not really tossing in the trash - they'll go to Marly or salvation army or something like that).
Pondering the meaning of home, the feeling of together, the connections that I crave, the connections that I have, the feelings that are wrong and right and the decisions on which I should hold back and which I should let flow full force. Way too much pondering.
Back to boredom and filling it with visual mindless entertainment. Wishing this post was more brilliant, eloquent, witty and interesting and pondering if I should just delete it...One of those days.
K

Circadian Creation: Proletariat 4.10.06

I'm behind in my CC topics. Will hopefully post a few more in the next few days, but this is today's topic...

Circadian Creation: Assimilation 4.4.06

This is not really how I wanted the assimilation to come out, but time constrains things. I will hopefully work on the other idea another day or days...because I think it's a cool idea.

Okay, so the blog thing is weird because I write these posts and then realize that I don't think people are even reading so it's sort of weird, even though I'm sort of just writing to myself, or maybe just to the internet (like The Paper Doll). Not important I guess. So I have that feeling of needing to control something at the moment....not sure why. It's this anxious feeling. Not comfortable..... but the sun is shining so the snow is gone and spring is back.

Snow!

What's up with this? Snow? It was pretty, but I'm ready for spring. The daffodils are already blooming and I think I have allergies and it was snowing like crazy this morning!

Circadian Creation: Metallic 4.03.06

Creative Postcard Club: Event Card

Another recycled image for my [late] postcard for the Creative Postcard Club.

Circadian Creation: PRIDE 3.31.06

Illustration Friday: Spring

I cheated a little because I recently used this for one of our CC topics, but that's okay. I think it works. Spring, blooming, colorful, fanciful thoughts, dreamy time.